Category Archives: Shuddering Stop

Birthday Delights.

Your rebirth.

An awakening
Of both body and soul
Awaits.

Our emotions
Rise and fall
Hard to breathe
Watching you.

You rise
Like a Phoenix
Seemingly unfettered and unafraid
Gazing deeply into the dark pool
As you step in
Ripples sending messages
Images evoked from deep inside.

Catch me inhaling
Focusing
Concentrating
Giddy with delight
Surrender control
As you 
Push me gently
Rock me gently
You take me higher.

Emotions remain
Entwined with thoughts
Gentle actions prefaced by tenderness
Soft glances hold the truth
Whispers escape
Promises renewed
Aching desire
As sweat trickles between them.

Skin to skin
Touching
Exploring
Logical thoughts
Submerged 
In this bath
As heightened senses
Trigger
Anticipation
And want.

Straining to hold back.
Your eyes
Caress my soul
As you pull me
Deeper.

You explore
And caress
As gasps
Reverberate
Then explode
Into a cacophony
Of delight.

Shared thoughts
Smiles 
Kisses
Salty taste
Between us.

Your hips
Gyrate
Guiding my fingers
Whisper to me
Until my tongue
Responds
To the urgency
Of your wants.

That sweetness
With me
Inside me
Forever you.


Cruising for Bruising.

My comfort always assured
This floating hotel
Your latest gift
Wrapped ever so neatly
With 20 years
Of happiness and loneliness.

This suite
Regal if you will
Filled with beauty
As stewards run around like ants
Watched warily
By this Queen.

My thoughts drift again
Your position at this exact moment
Hardly Cirque du Soleil my dear!
But I still miss it, all the same.

A sharp sound interrupts
My scribbling mind
Loses its focus
Re-engaging is never easy for me
And an almost forgotten task awaits
I must answer the door.

You enter
My legs wobble
As I inhale sharply

Pushing that cart effortlessly
Dormant emotions ascend
Deft fingers move about the cart
  I exhale loudly
As you remove my dress

You move with ease,
Plates, cups, dishes, cutlery
Losing control
Rocking back and forth upon you
Never experiencing such pleasure

My dinner service complete, you step back
My emotions burst forth
Tears mixed with sweat
As I lay my head on your chest

You gently slide the chair out,
Beckon me to sit
Eyes locked
As you caress my soul.

As I sit and ponder
I cannot help but turn to watch you leave.
You linger a moment longer
And that smile
Tells me
Everything
Was
Real.


Roses are Red

I would say
“Happy Valentine’s Day my Love”
But I can’t.

You will wait for me
Until the candle wax
Like lava
First trickles
Then seems to devour
The table beneath
As I too wait
For the wax
To drip
Onto
My nipples and chest
My eyes widen
As my flesh
Screams
Yet all I can taste
Is rubber.

When did I lose control
Relinquish
Myself to her.
Pain interrupts
Involuntary movement
Awakens her
Perched above
Watching 
Waiting
Ready.

My body acquiesces
Before my mind
Rationalizes
Equates
Makes excuses
You teach me
A firm lesson
In etiquette
Wrists bound
Arms stretched
Beyond what is normal
I laugh at that
As I embrace her pain
Like that first coffee
In the morning
Needed
Wanted
Desired.

Damn wax
Clears my mind 
Momentarily
Allowing me to dial you
Or did it?
The room is filled
With her laughter
Not a cackle
But a loud crack  
That pierces my sinew.
Did I scream
Throw my head back
Just a mere reflex
My plea’s
Ignored
Punished
As the cycle
Begins
Again and
Again.

Time passes slowly
Finally I have
Earned her treats
Bits and pieces
On the floor
Me,
Careful to avoid
Those Demonia heels
Yet, she cannot
Show mercy
I ask no quarter
My heart pounds
As I taste blood.

How fitting
On this special day.

 


Modelling, Toys and Other Trinkets

Strike a pose
Runway flattery
Such bright lights
Noise, laughter and
Stares.

Gliding
As if water
Was like concrete
Beneath your feet.
Effortlessly
Strutting, turning, showing
You dazzle
As you suck the room
Into you.

Staring into souls
Dismissing those
That cower or cry
Seeking
Strength and
Life.

Some dismiss you
Like an unwanted guest
Others open
Their window a crack
Without comprehension
Or understanding
Never feeling
Your teeth
As they sink
Deeply and draw
Their very life
Into you.

Engorged now
The ‘apres’ party
Belongs to you
Is yours
As the minions gather
Cackling on command
Yet stealthily searching
For dessert!

Unblemished
Untouched
Meat
For as darkness descends
Ravenous desires
Demand.

Oh his tenderness
Surprises
And calms
Pulling him
Deeper inside
Fervent movement
As you now
Sit atop
Gazing down
At his beauty
And goodness.

Inner emotions
Disturbed too
Demanding
Acquiescing
Carnal wants
Rescind
As you hear his name
Escape for your lips
Salty
Sweaty
You both
Push
Riding the waves together.

Eyes locked
Unspoken confessions
Exchanged
Time slows
Rhythmic motions
Replayed
Over and over
Delivered together
As the sun rises
To add its warmth and glow
To a new day.

A single tear
Escapes
As you wish
Yesterday to begin
Forever.


Winter Beckons

An awkward silence
Hangs delicately
Our eyes avoiding
Contact.

Each now just
An object.
Long gone are the
Amorous stares
Once a staple
Of our lives.

Intimacy replaced
By hesitancy
As minds
Race and search
To overcome
This rigid boundary,
To find
The freedom
That once defined us.

My feelings torn
Asunder
Should I open the window
Scream “I Love You”
To the world,
Show I am alive
Yet heartbroken
That we have
Drifted
Slowly
Away from us.

Vibrations
Once strong
And vivid
Now play
A dull beat
Prolonged agony
As our shared lives
Remain
Defined by
Covenants
Circles
Fantasies
Yet even entwined
We are not
Together.

Sometimes I escape
Wipe away the devastation
Conjure a familiar landscape
Our parallel existence
Where we roam
Free
Together
Hand in hand
Together
Smiling
Together.

Our inner desires
Fashioned
By endless days
And nights
There is no time
There is only
Us.

Bodies dance
With heated passions
Come together
Without boundaries
Or fear.
Our singular movements
Satisfy
Each ones needs and wants.

Erotic poses
Struck
As fingers gently play
And tongues explore.
Erogenous zones
Scream their demands
Our most intimate sensations
Revealed.

Arched backs
Muted cries
Smell you
Taste me
Bodies writhe
As warm
Sweat
Trickles
Between us.

Passionate
Souls  
Dance sweetly together
Desires exchanged
Sharing this power
We own
Together
Forever.

Each of us
Fascinated and
Addicted
To watch the other  
Scream towards
Ecstasy
Oh how we each crave
That moment of release.

Your garish
Paroxysm
On display
An exquisite performance
For my inner voyeur
Who lurks
Always so needy
Yet always satiated by you
Your irreverent giggle
Reveals
An image that I
Burn into my
Soul. 

Snap.
Remnants of memories
Suddenly fracture
Crushing 
My spirit
As the blackness
Returns
To complete its
Evil task.


Always Something There To Remind Me

My heart was stolen today
As I sat alone
At that Parisienne Cafe

A city alive
With love and laughter
She brushed beside me
My eyes filled with
Her flaming red hair.

My breath taken
Heart racing
A vision never seen before
As she turned
And smiled

Exhaling too loudly
Cynical stares
Disappointed eyes
Went beyond me
For I was conquered
Her aura
Invading every pore
A mastered soul
Lay bare before
Everything.

Her smile
An invitation of sorts
Only happens in their world
But it was for me this time
For me
She beckons
As she strolls away.

Fumbling for change
Grabbing my bag
I jump up to follow
My destiny
My Karma
My Love
My One Wish.

Sudden realization
As my mind cannot control
This body
Ravaged
Left with
My faithful wheelchair
She was only for a single moment
Memories erased
For I am
A casualty of war.


Renewal

You cannot doubt yourself
Memories cannot always be put away
Easily or
Equally.

Bring forth that one true emotion
Search deep inside
Set it out for everyone
To see and touch
LOVE.

Time passes with each and every blink
Our own hour-glass drains away
Far to quickly to be kept
Suffocating inside
A seemingly endless cloud.

Your happiness is deserved
But your struggle must be only for you.
Our ticket on this train
Does not include a return fare.

As each new journey begins
Look back
Savor the moments
Yet, know when to say goodbye.
Even spare a tear
But don’t look back in anger.