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Spilled Milk

A journey that flows 
Tantalizing and Mesmerizing 

Until this tranquil karma envelops us.

Paused as I wake

Your rhythmic breathing calls me

Floating

As I am reeled back into your sphere.

Perfect symmetry awaits 

I yearn for it 

Desire it more than anything 

Yet

 A moment

A glimpse 

Something 

Suddenly we are 

Stretching 

Waking 

Preparing for

Real life. 


Sweet

Sun beats down 

My mind drfits, images of you 

You broke my heart 

Yet nothing has changed 

You are the only one.

Children play

Lovers frolic at the beach 

Waves rhythmically caress the sand 

And my thoughts return

You are the only one.

Strap hanging, stealing furtive glances

Hoping to lose myself 

In those green eyes

Again

Days pass like clockwork 

You are the only one.

Move on

Move out 

Move over 

Renew

Endless words given 

Like inappropriate birthday presents

Nothing ever changes

You are the only one

For me.


Let Me

Holding hands

Sun setting

Laughing together 

Has this ever felt better ?

‘Cos all I want to do is dance.

Thoughts and feelings 

Overwhelming me 

Always when I see you

Could this be real?

‘Cos all I want to do is dance.

Anticipating 

Your kiss, your touch 

Erotic whispers 

Make this feel real 

‘Cos all I want to do is dance.

Time stops

Bouncing with the beat 

As we become one 

With the crowd 

Never want us to stop

‘Cos all I want to do is dance.


The Price is Right.

 
Butterflies
As I wait
For your command.
 
Harbored secrets
Slink among the shadows
Lest the light
Reveal all.
 
Slight vibration signals my departure
And arrival
Outside this door.
 
Expertly
You appraise and pull me inside
Without fanfare
Or greeting
Or introduction
This is just business.
 
Before a word
You fingers reach 
Roughly 
Expertly
This time is my money 
And your clock already started.
 
Counting the notes
Your mouth 
Holding court 
Sits in judgement
Urging
Demanding
My fullest attention.
 
Yet
As I look down
Feeling 
Unsure and Inhibited
My excuses rain down upon you
Different 
This must be 
Unexpected
Unforeseen
And unwelcome.
 
There is only one chance
Here
Now
Not later,
Not tomorrow,
Never again.
 
Embarrassed mumbling 
Ignored by you
Mean nothing to you
As your phone rings
Fills the room
My head 
My essence
A nightmare maybe
Until I see your eyes
Dismissing me
Urging a different action now
As the door slams shut.
 
What now?

Far From The Madding Crowd

Alone.

Acutely aware of everything
Retreating inside
Feels reassuring
Heightens every sense
Even as inactivity
Stomps around your room.

A not so gentle reminder
That you are summoned
To be judged accordingly
Even though
You just want to
Breathe.

A single breath
Would release these bindings
Let you open that window
To find
Who owns that desperate cry
That will not leave you

Alone.


Cake Never Tasted This Good

Words
Fail to convey
My feelings for you
On this day,
Which is always
Your day.

Balloons and Cake
Yes,  lots of cake
Candles too
Make up the day
As family and friends
Laugh with you
Regale you
Cherish you
And always
Love you.

So enjoy your day
Take time for yourself
Recharge and Relax
For tomorrow
Comes too quickly.

 


Remember Me

Here I am
Standing around, feeling lost
Eyeing people in this crowd
All packed in and crushed together
Lights popping, music so loud.
Are you in here, like you said
For you are the only key
But here I see nothing that I want
Not even a smile
From someone, anyone
What’s in here for me?

Did you remember
What you whispered to me last night.

I hesitate at the bar, what should I order
Scared to be wrong
Scared to be right
Scared to even think
Noise level heading upwards
Useless without you
Need some air, just to be able to get through this moment.
Did you remember
What you whispered to me last night.
Nerves or steel
But, I’m no Superman
More like a third wheel to you
When your friends are over
Laughing and joking
It’s all about me,
Peeling away my feeling of bliss
Fingers prodding and poking
But they all know
You won’t even let me taste a kiss.
Did you remember
What you whispered to me last night.
Leaving this place
My shoulders rise and slump
Screw that crowd
With their out of time fist pumps.
No one cares about me now
I won’t even glance behind me
In case I see him snicker
Standing next to you
Knowing that you are now lost forever.
You never remembered
What you whispered to  me last night.